take courage, dear heart.

“Our willingness to wait reveals the value we place on the object we’re waiting for”- Charles Stanley


I cringe at that word. I’ll tell you a funny, and embarrassing story. I remember going to this water park called “super splash” when I was in middle school, living in Missouri. On this particular day, I was swimming with my best friend, Caity. These older middle school boys(probably 8th or 7th grade) asked me a question and after I responded, started making fun of my “squeaky voice”. They were in their group laughing at my little kid voice. I swam over to my friend and she asked why they were looking at me, laughing. I shrugged it off like it was no big deal. But my friend was livid. She demanded me to stand up and yell “My name is Meaghan and I like the sound of my voice!” So after 30 minutes of arguing with my friend I finally gave into her stubborn personality and  stood up on that platform of embarrassment (the concrete ground next to the pool). First I whispered it “my name is meaghan, and I like the sound of my voice.” I sounded just like the girl from pitch perfect. NO JOKE! Caity was not pleased with my shyness and kept pushing me until after like the 10th time I finally yelled out loud “MY NAME IS MEAGHAN AND I LIKE THE SOUND OF MY VOICE!!!!” Everyone in the pool stared at me and those guys stopped laughing. It was probably the most terrifying experience for my little 6th grader self. Let’s just say, my personality is the OPPOSITE of loud. I guess by now, it’s also not shocking the my biggest fear is being the center of the attention. I will go take my place to my corner now, thankyou very much.

But lately God has been doing a work on my heart to be bold about my standards in relationships. As I’ve opened up in the past about my standards, my number one response is “You’ll never find a guy that will be willing to wait to kiss until marriage, meaghan” or my favorite “Your future boyfriend is going to be whipped!” I also love seeing the faces I get when I kindly explain to people I refuse to date a guy that isn’t a Jesus follower too. It still boggles my mind as to why these concepts are so bizarre to others. Guys that love Jesus and have high standards most certainly exist.  I refuse to lower my standards for the basic fear of ending up alone. I would much rather be alone and single than be lonely and married but I digress. However what I have struggled with is speaking up for my beliefs without fear of what others response may be. I’ve recently noticed a very relaxed approach to purity among people in the college setting. It’s not that we don’t want to be respected or to wait until marriage; we most certainly want that. But what we don’t want even more is to ‘miss out’. Some of us are quote on quote “fomos”.

We allow society to convince us that the call to singleness is the same as the call to loneliness.

Whatever your standards may be, don’t ever settle for the fear of loneliness or the fear of not “fitting in”. The Lord honors those who walk in integrity. Choosing purity requires we give up something. But it also promises blessing far beyond what we could have imagined. We give up our desires, trusting that loving our sister/brother in Christ in innocence until our wedding night will be worth more than anything a quick  satisfaction with our fleshly desires could offer. You may not fit in with the ‘in’ crowd and you may, as well get made of for being “a bible thumping prude”.  I’ve had many people laugh at me for my standards, but let me just say my future husband is NOT going to be laughing in my face on our wedding night when I tell him “You were worth the wait”. As Paul explained it in Galatians ‘I do not live to please people. For if I were still pleasing people, I would not be a servant of Christ’. Living in purity should be something we, as God’s children, are more than proud of. Not proud, as in we’re prideful and think we’re better than those living in sexual sin.  But prideful in that we know we are set apart for a greater calling. We unabashedly know who we are in Christ and that our worth is equivalent to the blood of God’s only son. Wherever you are right now, don’t be ashamed of the standards God has placed on your heart. Let’s take the stance to stop being who the world wants us to be and be who God has called us to be. So I’ll end with this; are you standing at the edge of the pool faintly whispering your standards where no one can hear you, out of embarrassment or are you loudly proclaiming God’s calling to purity with the intentions it will bring hope to other people and lead them to Christ? If you are in a spot right now where you’ve made mistakes, the good news is, it’s never too late to change. You are always worth love and respect, despite your decisions in the past. Christ died to give us all second chances.Take courage, dear heart. Be bold about your standards. Your worth it!


I love this video of Moriah Peters. You should watch it!

Follow Me

” That’s what I’ve tried to do time and again. I take my roller of forget, try to wipe away anything and everything inside that hurts, that worries me and makes me sad. I smooth out frazzled fragments of memories so nothing disturbs my peace or breaks my faith..”

-Bonnie Gray (finding spiritual whitespace)


Haven’t we all looked at our heart and thought to ourselves “I need to be joyful or else I don’t have enough faith.” Haven’t we all been hurt and damaged and then pushed past the pain because we feel the expectation to be happy? It’s tragic but I’ve felt it more than ever this past year. Flashbacks of a horrifying experience have been haunting me. It wasn’t something that necessarily happened to me, but I watched someone I loved suffer. Whispers slowly trickled deep into my soul “You deserve that, Meaghan. You’re not worthy of a Godly relationship. The same thing is going to happen to you.” Shame tackled me into the basement of my heart where I actually felt trapped by all the lies I was believing. I was embaressed by my shame and the sorrow that lingered in my heart. I would go to church with a smile and come home to a pillow of tears scared that if I told anyone I would be judged. I felt like a failure as a christian and anytime I tried to build up the courage to voice my struggle I was silenced by that haunting phrase “Your pain wasn’t really that bad. You don’t have a real reason to be sad. Depression is a sin, Meaghan. You’re struggles are a nuisance. You’ll overwhelm others if you open up. God is annoyed by your pain” So I hid from my shame and put on the happy face. Have you been feeling this way? Unable to put your sorrow into words and terrified of how God looks at you because you’re not being joyful? I felt this way until finally I found Bonnie Gray’s sobering words. God loves me when I’m broken. I paused, Could it be true? Could God really me? Let alone love others through all my brokenness? Could I serve God’s kingdom and make a difference with all these broken pieces? God whispered into my heart

“Meaghan, you try to push down the pain to please others but I know what hurt you. You feel like your pain is insignificant but what wounds you, wounds me. Look into my hands and see the scars I took for you. I want to heal you of your hurt. Come follow me. Build your safe place with me.”

As I have been digging through this new truth for my pain, a verse that normally gave me anxiety kept popping into my head.

follow me, Peter”

Peter denied Jesus three times. For days shame must have flooded his heart. “I have failed my Lord. How could he accept me now? I’m no good as a servant now.” Often times when I’ve been taught on this verse I’ve always been prompted to “follow jesus” by sacrificing my life and doing radical things. But Jesus was weaving a different perspective into my heart. A perspective that would bring healing for this season. Jesus constantly told the disciples “follow me” after he met them. It was a phrase that ensured their identity. Peter felt the expectation for Jesus to disown him so he went back to fishing. He returned to all of his old habits. But Jesus does something special after he is ressurected. He reiterates that phrase back to him “follow me, Peter. You’re still worth it. You’re still my son. I still want you. I want you and all your broken pieces. Come and follow me because you’re worth it.” Jesus was whispering something similair into my heart “Meaghan, follow me and my faithful love for your heart. You’re still worth it. I still want you and all of your broken pieces. Joy isn’t something I expect from you, it’s something I long to give to you. So come with me.” So my hope for you is to give voice to the pain lingering deep down and invite Jesus down to the basement of your soul. We all have those tender spots in our hearts that we’re protective over. The thought of exposing that fresh wound and given only more damaging words is traumatizing, so we hold everything in. We lock the door tight and pretend to have it all together at church. But Jesus knows those tender spots in your heart and knows exactly how to heal them. He’s not going to judge you. Come with me and courageously offer up those wounded pieces in our lives. Let’s trade in the expectations of who we’re supposed to be as a ” christian” for God’s relentless love as our father. Expose those pieces to your creator. He’s whispering in my heart and your heart “follow me“. Will we choose to answer with a “yes, Abba. I will follow you into this world as your beloved daughter. I will let go of all my attempts to be good enough and trust your love for me even when I feel I don’t deserve it” ? Yes, there will be days when I fail God just as Peter did and I respond no but I can rest assured that his arms are always open and the call is always there for me “Follow me, Meaghan. Let me build my home in those painful areas in your heart”019


Questions that have been challenging me:

Are you pushing God’s love away because you feel you don’t deserve it?

If Jesus were to write a paragraph about you what would it say? Would it be negative or positive? What lies have you been believing from the enemy?

Have you been viewing joy as an expectation or a gift?

Have you been feeling unworthy because you’re not doing enough in the church?

Do you believe there are things in your life that are separating you from God’s love? If so what? Go read verse 5 and silence the accusations of the enemy.


Look at these verses. Which one’s are hardest for you to believe? Notice how hard it is for you to believe them and remind yourself “I’m rejecting this verse because of Satan’s lies”

1). The LORD your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing. Zephaniah 3:17

2) Because you are precious in my eyes, and honored, and I love you. Isaiah 43:4

3) You make known to me the path of life; you will fill me with joy in  your presence, with eternal pleasures at your right hand. Psalm 16:11

4) Are you tired? Worn out? Burned out on religion? Come to me. Get away with me and you’ll recover your life. I’ll show you how to take a real rest. Walk with me and work with me—watch how I do it. Learn the unforced rhythms of grace. I won’t lay anything heavy or ill-fitting on you. Keep company with me and you’ll learn to live freely and lightly. Matthew 11:28

5) And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[b] neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow—not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. 39 No power in the sky above or in the earth below—indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:38




Beloved and Beautiful

Do not let your adorning be external- the braiding of hair and the putting on of gold jewelry, or the clothing you wear- but let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit which in God’s eyes is very precious.

1 Peter 3: 5






So earlier this week I cut my hair, and not just a trim. I cut off about six inches when I asked the hair stylist  for a pixie cut. I tried to push the tears down for later because caring that much about my hair is just plain embaressing. But ladies, let’s be entirely honest without condemnation for a moment. WE PUT A LOT OF  CONFINDENCE IN OUR HAIR. I don’t think the weight of value we place on our hair or appearance is necessarily silly or even eviI. In fact God’s word says so!

“But if a woman have long hair, it is a glory to her; for her hair is given her as a covering.”

1 Cor 11:15

Paul wrote on how much value a ladie’s hair is but what I’ve been contemplating lately is the ultimate question we often lift up to our creator “Am I beautiful?” I don’t mean just physical appearance wise, but also internally. Is my heart beautiful? Am I lovely? Am I worthy of adoration and affection? Many ladies often try to take this question to man and that may temporarily fill them, but that hole in our heart is too large for any person to cover. We’re often taught on God as the father, God as the healer, Jesus as the savior. But I’ve missed out on the whole “us as the beloved” lecture. Paul describes the church as Christ’s beloved. That word just throws me off guard everytime I’m reading my bible because it’s such a beautiful word.  All my desires for romance and beauty dissipitate when I look at that word and the meaning behind it. When you type in the exact definition of beloved on google this is what comes up. I hope this carries you off your feet too.


1). dearly loved

synonyms: darling, dear, dearest, precious, adored, much loved, cherished, treasured, prized, highly regarded, admired

2). a much loved person.

God cherishes you. God treasures you. God adores you. God calls you precious. You are defined as a  much loved person.

Now going back to 1 Peter 3 (my favorite verse  btw), notice how a gentle and quiet spirit is precious to God. Our inner beauty is defined as the “hidden person of the heart”. I love the freedom that rushes over me when I read that verse; it always puts me to stop. You and I don’t have to worry braiding our hair or earning approval from others because simply trusting in the Lord brings us the most beauty. Afraid of aging? It calls this beauty the “imperishable beauty”. Umm, so much for anti-age cream! My beauty comes from within. When I’m entrusting my hope to God and leaning on him, that’s when I’m truly radiant. To be gentle and quiet in your spirit simply means not being anxious. Society pressures us into looking thin and having good skin and growing out long luscious hair. For me that causes a lot of fears when I think about meeting new people, making friends, dating, etc… But God is setting us free from that stressful and exhausting lifestyle of pleasing people. God is beckoning you and I to trust in Him when we feel rejected or unwanted or unloved. What areas of your life is God beckoning you to stop worrying over?

You can’t rely on how you look to sustain you. What is fundamentally beautiful is compassion for yourself and those around you. That kind of beauty enflames the heart and enchants the soul.” – Lupita Nyongo




Those Pesky Little Food Addictions

Those Pesky Little Food Addictions.


Struggling with cutting out those chocolate chip cookies? Maybe even that delicious taco bell after work? 

When I started eating healthy, I had so many bad habits like getting popcorn at the movie theatre. It was a huge obstacle to overcome those pesky little food cravings. Each time after giving in, I’d get extremely frustrated. I was mentored by an amazing sweet lady who had just become a health coach but it was so hard not comparing myself to her. She was great at her job; she was always encouraging us and giving us all valuable information on nutrient dense foods. However, I started comparing myself to all the ‘health experts’ and I’d lose sight of the fact, they’d been working on their eating habits for over 10 years. I desperately wanted to be quote on quote “healthy perfection”. Maybe that sounds like you right now. You want to be “healthy perfection.” 


Take a step back and look at how far you’ve come in your diet. Those little food addictions are annoying but don’t beat yourself up about them! I’m going to give you sound advice on moving past them each day until they’re no longer there. You can overcome them, it’s just a series of breaking old habits and replacing them with better ones.


1). Lemon Water

Water is known to stop cravings. You don’t have to do lemon, I just like lemon and mint. The refreshment of lemons and mint makes me disgusted at the site of cookies. Before you go somewhere where temptation will arise, make a bottle of lemon water. Water also gives a LOT of energy. Drinking lemon water or whatever kind you find on pinterest will help you get rid of your cravings!


2). Stop Buying Those Unhealthy Foods!!

As simple as this sounds, this was a huge battle for me. Maybe entirely cutting out those chocolate chip cookies or doritos at the grocery store is impossible right now. My suggestion: buy the smaller size. I used to buy cookie dough and repeat to myself “I’m only going to eat one a day.” Ummm, yeah no! lol Instead my new rule is I can only buy a cookie if I buy ONE in the bakery department. When those unhealthy foods are out of your house, you’re less likely to eat them.

3). Find YOUR Focus Food and run with it!

A focus food is an alternative healthy food that you love. Anytime you crave your unhealthy snack, you can give yourself this instead. Pick something you’re excited about! My focus food is avocados with sunflower seeds. YUM! Avocados are known to stop sugar cravings; goodbye chocolate chip cookie runs. Try it! If avocados aren’t your thing, try carrots, cucumbers, apples and almond butter. Go on pinterest and find something healthy that YOU love and stick with it. 

4). Plan To-Go Foods!

It’s so easy to cave in at a grad party, or go crazy at a restaurant. I love KIND bars and LUNA bars. I buy them especially for going places. When you have a healthy snack, it’s a lot easier to say no to the chocolate chip cookies. A healthy snack plus lemon water, those things are going to look like a stick of margarine;you won’t want em! (: What’s something you love that you could easily take with you everywhere you go? 

5). Get A Mantra

Repeat something simple in your head that will convict you of eating those unhealthy treats. I always repeat to myself “It tastes good now, but it’s going to feel bad later.” Find something simple that motivates you to eat cleaner and repeat it to yourself. 


It’s okay to binge a little bit every now and then. Eating healthy isn’t about deprivation nor is about being a “health nazi perfectionist”. It’s been a year since I started changing my diet and I still have hiccups every day, but I don’t give up. Keep your goal in mind and don’t give up on eating healthy! Look at how far you’ve come and use that to motivate you. It takes time to overcome old habits! Be patient with yourself. If you have a bad day, start over tomorrow. 


Summer Mixtape

I LOVE music.
I just found this free download and thought I’d share! I personally listen to all these rad artists; who doesn’t want FREE music?!

Just go to


Along with that awesome download
May I also recommend some other free music?

1). WASHA-Child
This song was written from a guy’s experience with depression. He thought it was normal to live in the darkness until he tasted God’s freedom. The song is not only rad lyrically but I just love the whole sound!


2). Ben Freeman- Grace that Saves
The song starts out with acoustic vocals and then transcends into something new! Plus, the song makes you want to worship!


3). Robbey Seay Band-Psalm 91
This song is such a good reminder of God’s promises towards us! Such a lovely song!


4). Loud Harp- ASALPH
The whole album is just lovely! I always listen to loud harp when I’m in desperate need of a reminder of God’s love for me. The lyrics are so reassuring! Loud Harp has such a unique sound to them! Highly recommend listening to them!


5). Judah Lee- Build My Home
I always make worship songs for my sister, Milli and her response was “Is this a christian song?” I love hearing that question! Finding bands that you can worship to without sacrificing your unique music taste is always my goal. Not to be rude but who loves K-Love? Lol, not this girl. Give me some indie music please. Beautiful song!


6). Future of Forestry- All I Want
The lyrics of this song are so heartfelt and real! Love the piano version of this awesome worship song! If you like Vitamin String Quartet, you’ll love this new album! They added a classical yet exciting twist to this song!


I couldn’t choose one song to recommend; they’re ALL good! I don’t like rap but I cannot get enough of these songs! The lyrics are deep and meaningful all the while the instruments are delightful too! The band has it’s own music category “indie;rap”. Umm, wow! That’s how cool they are! Listen to them!


These songs aren’t free, but they’re RAD!

8). A Jesus Church- Carry Your Name
The whole album is awesome! Unfortunately, there aren’t any free downloads for this band but you can check them out on youtube! You can buy their full album on iTunes. They’re an indie worship band!

A Jesus Church- Carry Your Name

9). FMLYBND- Electricity
This will be my summer jam! The lyrics to this song are so good plus the song is just beyond awesomeness! They have an electronic feel! If you like MGMT you’ll love this band!


10). John Mark McNillan- Counting On
I love the lyrics to this song! John Mark McNillan is an alternative/christian artist. He puts his own twist to the alternative vibe! Check out his new album, plus this song!

John Mark McNillan- Counting On

11). The Royal Royal- Light A Fire

Can’t really describe this song but it’s one of my favorites to listen to! The Royal Royal sounds like a mix between alternative and electronic/beat music! They’re really fun to jam out to!

The Cost of Sharing Your Story


My freshman year of college, thus far, has been one of the most heartwrenching seasons of my life. I prayed fervently for God to break my heart for what breaks his and my goodness did he overwhelm me with sarrow and grief for the brokenness of this world. I’ve leaned into some of the hardest conversations at church and in my personal life on depression and suicide. One of the most difficult situations for a christian to endure is to watch a loved one go through the same thing you went through and know that there’s absolutely nothing you can do to help them but point them to Jesus. Nine times out of ten when I’ve done that, I and my personal savior have been rejected. The first thoughts that run through my heart “How could they reject you, Jesus? You died on a cross for them. You have the healing power. You love them way more than I do. Come and break through with lightning bolts; you can heal them, gosh dangit! If I hurt this bad I can’t imagine how you must feel.” I’m still praying and petitioning for God to work miracles in the lives of those around me. But what’s kept me strong is the truth of who I am in Christ.

Isaiah 41:10
I have chosen you and not cast you off”;
fear not, for I am with you;
be not dismayed, for I am your God;
I will strengthen you, I will help you,
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

I’ve tried sharing the story of healing and joy and love that I’ve found through Jesus to my loved ones countless times and have faced only anger thereafter. Many times it’s left me feeling empty and wanting to give up entirely on our relationship. It’s left me thinking “Gosh, that person seriously hates me, i’m a mess up.” If anything it feels like a war and they’ve won. Thoughts wander ceaselessly through my head “Maybe my faith is wrong.. maybe i’m not able to love as Christ loved… maybe i’m not good enough to be a true ambassador for Christ.” Has anyone else ever felt that way? That’s when the truth of who I am in Christ came in. You and I are his servant whom he’s chosen. He promises to strengthen us and help us in this battle. Surprisingly, we’re not fighting against flesh but against the enemy. We’re not fighting against our loved ones, we’re fighting with them. We’re fighting with them and for them to set them free from the painful bondages of the world. Our hope as christians is found in God’s power.

Ephesians 6:12 marks out the battle
” For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places.”

Romans 16:20 illustrates the hope in our hearts
The God of peace will soon crush Satan under your feet.

The courageous death of the Apostle Paul in Acts has always left me wandering what he felt. He would preach and at the end the romans were still passionate about killing him. Did he feel like his faith was wrong? Like he wasn’t able to love as Christ loved? Like he wasn’t a good enough ambassador for Christ? Why should I or you feel that way? Paul died knowing that God’s love wasn’t based on how many people acccepted him but what was done on the cross. How he answered the council always suprises me, yet relieves me because it’s exactly the heart of all christ-followers.

Acts 26:28-30
And Agrippa said to Paul, “In a short time would you persuade me to be a Christian?” And Paul said, “Whether short or long, I would to God that not only you but also all who hear me this day might become such as I am–except for these chains.”

God’s grace covers us and that’s the message we get to live out when we preach the gospel to people. Whether they want to accept it or not, is not left on us. We get to speak up about God’s love and healing and then we have the freedom of placing the rest in God’s hands. When we get to heaven God isn’t going to ask us “Who did you convert?” No he’s going to look us in grace where we’re covered in Jesus’s blood and ask us sweetly “Did you love? Did you truly love with an unconditional heart?” I want to always answer yes to that question. I want to love everyone with all I can because Jesus said they deserved it on the cross. I’m not perfect at loving but I’m going to try with everything I’ve got. People may reject your story and your faith but they can’t reject the love that you and I show them. Don’t give up anyone. No person is out of God’s reach for healing and restoration. Keep praying and hoping.

Colossians 4:2-6 gives us great advice!

“Continue steadfastly in prayer, being watchful in it with thanksgiving.”

“Let your speech always be gracious, seasoned with salt, so that you may know how you ought to answer each person.”

So brothers and sisters, always extend grace and love. Until Jesus comes back to crush Satan for all, keep fighting. Keep sharing your love and your story no matter what the cost. It’s not our duty to change or save people but it is our call to love them unconditionally no matter what. God has you placed exactly where you are for a reason. He set you in this geration, this time, this exact location for a specific purpose. The people in your life aren’t by accident; you are placed to show those around you God’s love. You carry something unique and special that is designated to show a specific piece of God’s heart to the world so go out there and don’t hold back on sharing the freedom of God’s grace! God is with us!

If you’re struggling with understanding God’s grace for you personally, I highly reccomend watching this video by Jeff Bethke! It’s awesome!

Better than Reese’s, Reese’s Peanut Butter Cups


Dark Chocolate Coconut Almond Cups

4 Tablespoons Almond Butter(I use Justin’s Maple Almond Butter)
5 Tbsp Coconut Oil
1 Bag Ghirardelli Dark Chocolate Chips (You can use other chocolate chips, but these have the best taste)
1 Tsp Salt (I like using McCormick’s Salt Grinder)
1 Muffin/Cupcake Pan
1 Package Cupcake
Makes Approximately: 12 cups

1). Heat up 1/3 of the Ghirardelli Chocolate Chips in a pan with 3 tbsp Coconut Oil on medium heat. (I heat mine on 4)

2). Fill the little cups with your melted chocolate. Sprinkle with sea salt. Then, place in freezer for about 15 minutes.

3). Take out the chocolate filled cups and place Almond Butter on top, and heat up the rest of the chocolate now using the rest of the bag and about 4 tbsp of coconut oil. Fill each cup with chocolate. Sprinkle with salt and place in freezer for another 15 minutes. P.S I always try to smush the almond butter down using a spoon so that the chocolate will fill over it easier.


4). You’re done! These are super rich, so I suggest cutting them in fourth’s or in half!

I promise you, these will make you hate Reese’s! The almond butter just oozes out of the cup while the chocolate literally melts in your mouth. Tip : You can even add Chia seeds on top of the almond butter filling if you want to make them into a more nutritious treat. Enjoy (:

gluten free. paleo.


Nothing makes my heart more happy than chocolate and books.
I am currently reading “Spoken For”.
Enjoy these tasty treats and know that you are loved, adored and cherished! (: